I guess until you experience firsthand the awkward shock and uncomfortable uneasiness that accomodates finding out your ex-boyfriend is engaged… it’s just a saying. So here’s what I have to say about it.

It sucks. And it’s not like you want him back. It’s not like he was the only one who could make you laugh. It’s not like you even care. It’s not like he was the only one who cared for you. It’s not like you are jealous. It’s not like he was or is even worth blogging about.

It’s because you lost the race. The inevitable mission to find someone stronger, prettier, smarter, funnier, and let’s face it.. just better.

It’s because you are still single and he is going to get married. Those five kids and cute picket fenced house with potted roses beneath each window sill and family vacation you so dream about? He is devouring the real thing while you try to savor it from afar. Because you are pathetically single and desparately longing for fulfillment similar to his decision to live forever with one person. And even if you wouldn’t have said yes, the option to be that person was never given to you.

It’s because you stuck around for 2 years while he told you things would get better and asked if you were excited about the future with him…when in reality he meant… “Let me see if I meet someone better before I break it off with you..” and you fell for it and though it didn’t hurt much.. it shocked you to acknowledge someone could do this to you…

It’s because when everyone says, “Why can’t you just be happy for him?” you want to puke in your mouth and then spit it out at them … and then maybe sock em. Literally. Because like the sock in the stomach that was him dumping me, this is the reminder that I didn’t follow my gut and I stuck around only to become more bitter and ever so scared to be single for goodness knows how long?!

It’s because as indifferent as I am now.. I did deserve the right to mope in shock and blog about it.. and now, I am fine and can genuinely say..good riddance and good night and ohh.. thank you!

Thank you for not giving me the option of waking up to a bad tempered and arrogant man with numerous shortcomings every day of my life.

Thank you for allowing me the option to avoid settling and instead proactively search for that heart fluttering and fantabulously spectacular beyond your unicorn and rainbow cloud dream of a man .. who I have not yet met by the way.

Thank you. And have a nice life. Even if it surpasses mine. =D