This has been a really weird couple of weeks for me. For the two years I have not gone home for the holidays. About a week ago, I promised myself that I would have an amazing Christmas, even if I spent it alone. This year= NO TEARS. But today, 11 days before Christmas eve, I am finding it very hard to stay positive. One of my close friends is having a really rough time with all of this, him not being able to go home and a horrible year to add on top of it. I am trying to stay positive to the people around me so I don’t bring them down with me. But this year has really sucked. I am trying to stay strong but sometimes you just have to let go, right? 2009 will be different. It has to be. For me to stay sane…and for me to stay happy.

so here it goes

1. Find a great job ( that isn’t to hard, and pays good money)

2. Stay positive every single day, things happen for a reason…

3. Keep a good group of friends

4. Go somewhere I have never been with a friend ( or two)

5. Get in Shape

6. Stay in shape

7. Keep my bank account up and not going in to negative

8. Actually build up my savings.

9. Pay my bills on time

10. Book a Gig. A big Gig

11. Keep drama away….far away…

12. Finish my apartment…

13. Fall in love… or better yet…Find someone that loves me

ugh

not a huge list

…but that last one kills me